Rode my exercise bike for 18 1/2 minutes yesterday. I was going for 20 but my knee started to hurt so I stopped. I figured if I kept going I would hurt today and not get back on the stupid thing. I really hate to exercise. I find no joy in it at all. I know I should be doing it everyday and trying to go longer and longer. I really can't stand it. I imagine one big reason is all the pain I am in. But I need to keep going so I can get this weight off which is the cause of most of the pain.
Friday, May 8, 2015
Thursday, May 7, 2015
5/7/15
Yesterday was a little better food wise. I still felt like I was on an eating frenzy. When I have this desire to eat, I would stop and think...Am I hungry? A couple times yes, and a couple no. It did help yesterday to have the bowl of broccoli with my WW entrée. Also, in the afternoon I ate my peaches. I got the kind in the freezer section with no sugar added. I put a little cinnamon on them. It tasted like peach cobbler. I am taking the tomato juice out of my morning routine. While it fills me up I think it has too much salt. At least I hope this water retention. I am going to be so sad to gain weight on my second weigh in.
I have a busy day at work today so hopefully that will keep my mind occupied.
Have a great day.
I have a busy day at work today so hopefully that will keep my mind occupied.
Have a great day.
Wednesday, May 6, 2015
5/6/15
On Monday, I had my first weigh in with Weight Watchers. I lost a pound. Pretty sure it was because I was wearing a different pair of pants that are a lighter material.
Since I decided to do this, I feel like I am starving and can't get enough food. So it comes down to I am not getting enough food because I don't have enough plain vegetables and fruits in my diet. I eat all the wrong foods so I am only allowed a 1/2 cup of most things I like to eat. So I am really hungry. I feel like I am on a feeding frenzy. Today, I tried to bring enough stuff to work so I could stop this feeling. I brought my WW egg sandwich, a can of tomato juice, a cup of raw cucumber, a cup of cooked broccoli and a cup of peaches. I also have my WW frozen lunch entrée. Crazy thing is I have a desire to wolf it all down now. I don't believe I am actually hungry. I think there is something wrong in my head.
My rings are really tight so I am not losing weight I feel like I am gaining. So today I hope to get control of this with the extra veggies and fruits.
My depression is pretty high right now too. I have been going to bed around 8:00 each night and I am not doing anything except reading. That is an escape mechanism for me. Really weepy today. My husband and I are planning to move back to WI in April. And while I want to go back, it is really scary because we will have no income till we find jobs. Also, I have a co-worker that I just want to scream at. This is what I would scream - SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. She drives me nuts and is making my great job not so great.
Okay, I am off to try to make this a good day.
Since I decided to do this, I feel like I am starving and can't get enough food. So it comes down to I am not getting enough food because I don't have enough plain vegetables and fruits in my diet. I eat all the wrong foods so I am only allowed a 1/2 cup of most things I like to eat. So I am really hungry. I feel like I am on a feeding frenzy. Today, I tried to bring enough stuff to work so I could stop this feeling. I brought my WW egg sandwich, a can of tomato juice, a cup of raw cucumber, a cup of cooked broccoli and a cup of peaches. I also have my WW frozen lunch entrée. Crazy thing is I have a desire to wolf it all down now. I don't believe I am actually hungry. I think there is something wrong in my head.
My rings are really tight so I am not losing weight I feel like I am gaining. So today I hope to get control of this with the extra veggies and fruits.
My depression is pretty high right now too. I have been going to bed around 8:00 each night and I am not doing anything except reading. That is an escape mechanism for me. Really weepy today. My husband and I are planning to move back to WI in April. And while I want to go back, it is really scary because we will have no income till we find jobs. Also, I have a co-worker that I just want to scream at. This is what I would scream - SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP. She drives me nuts and is making my great job not so great.
Okay, I am off to try to make this a good day.
Thursday, April 30, 2015
4/30/15
Apparently one of the many reasons I am over weight is my portion sizes are way too big. Yesterday I felt like I was on an eating frenzy. It was like I just couldn't get enough food. Which, I am sure was NOT the case.
For lunch yesterday I went to Noodle & Co. I had a coupon to try their new Buff Bowls. No noodles. Advertised as being chocked full of broccoli, red peppers, carrots, spinach and onions. Could barely find a piece of broccoli. It was mostly carrots. I like carrots raw. There is something about a slightly cooked carrot that just turns me off. The normal price for this is $8.49. I don't think it was worth it. If it would have had lots of broccoli maybe.
This Saturday when I go grocery shopping I am going to stock up on broccoli, spinach and cucumbers. Lots of cucumbers. At least with cukes, I get the crunch and not so many calories.
So being on Weight Watchers is not easy but then nothing is. If there was something easy we would all be doing it.
OA for Today - Pain persists until I give up trying to do things my way.
Couldn't be more true....
For lunch yesterday I went to Noodle & Co. I had a coupon to try their new Buff Bowls. No noodles. Advertised as being chocked full of broccoli, red peppers, carrots, spinach and onions. Could barely find a piece of broccoli. It was mostly carrots. I like carrots raw. There is something about a slightly cooked carrot that just turns me off. The normal price for this is $8.49. I don't think it was worth it. If it would have had lots of broccoli maybe.
This Saturday when I go grocery shopping I am going to stock up on broccoli, spinach and cucumbers. Lots of cucumbers. At least with cukes, I get the crunch and not so many calories.
So being on Weight Watchers is not easy but then nothing is. If there was something easy we would all be doing it.
OA for Today - Pain persists until I give up trying to do things my way.
Couldn't be more true....
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
4/29/15
One day of Weight Watchers counting points. No wonder I am overweight. Everything I like is to high in points. I need to find a way to eat vegetables. I felt like I was starving yesterday. Of course I wasn't. I think it was just the thought of "nope, can't have that". Like tonight my husband is making spaghetti. I can only have 1/2 cup of noodles. If you can only eat 1/2 cup of noodles...I salute you. I am not a vegetable fan. I do like cucumbers but I bet they are going to get old eating them every day. I need to eat vegetables without hiding them in sauces and dips. I don't know how I grew up hating them. I can't eat a raw tomato at all. I have tried many times. Yuk. But I can eat them cooked or made into spaghetti sauce!! I also can't eat a mushroom. The other vegetables I can eat a bit of. This is going to be tough but I want to succeed.
OA tells you to ask your Higher Power for help. I guess I had better start praying.
OA tells you to ask your Higher Power for help. I guess I had better start praying.
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
4/28/15
I have such a hard time blogging and journaling. I think it is because I beat myself up when I do it.
So this is what I did yesterday...I walked around to the other side of the block that I work on and joined Weight Watchers. Since I am a food-a-holic I think about food all day long. Well joining WW isn't helping with that in this first 24 hours because all I am doing is trying to figure out meals that stay in my point range. It would be so helpful if I liked vegetables. Veggies are mostly free foods. My mother was a horrible cook so I think that is the reason I like junk food or pasta. Joining WW was a hard thing to do. Since I can't seem to lose weight on my own, I feel like I have failed again. But I need to get this weight off. I am in so much physical pain. I actually weighed in about 10 lbs less than I thought I would so that was a positive. There is a WW meeting every day at noon at this location so I think I will try to go often, as if it were a OA meeting.
I purchased a used Kindle about 5 weeks ago and my co-worker told me about Kindle Unlimited on Amazon so I have been reading like crazy. I am reading a series about a retired police office by Nelson DeMille. I also read a book about Grover Cleveland. Plus lots of other books. At home I am reading Threat Vector by Tom Clancy. The book itself is huge so I don't carry it back and forth to work with me. It is nearly too big for me to hold even (because of the incredible pain in my hands and wrists) The book didn't need to be that big. The font and spacing are a bit larger than a normal book. Tom Clancy must have a tiny..... never mind....
I finished my stitching project for my cousin. I hope to wash it tonight and take a photo of it. I bought a white frame for it. After I iron it I will see if the frame is big enough and I will take it to Michael's to get framed this weekend. I am going to the family reunion in Montana but I think I will ship this to my cousin ahead of me.
Have a great day.
So this is what I did yesterday...I walked around to the other side of the block that I work on and joined Weight Watchers. Since I am a food-a-holic I think about food all day long. Well joining WW isn't helping with that in this first 24 hours because all I am doing is trying to figure out meals that stay in my point range. It would be so helpful if I liked vegetables. Veggies are mostly free foods. My mother was a horrible cook so I think that is the reason I like junk food or pasta. Joining WW was a hard thing to do. Since I can't seem to lose weight on my own, I feel like I have failed again. But I need to get this weight off. I am in so much physical pain. I actually weighed in about 10 lbs less than I thought I would so that was a positive. There is a WW meeting every day at noon at this location so I think I will try to go often, as if it were a OA meeting.
I purchased a used Kindle about 5 weeks ago and my co-worker told me about Kindle Unlimited on Amazon so I have been reading like crazy. I am reading a series about a retired police office by Nelson DeMille. I also read a book about Grover Cleveland. Plus lots of other books. At home I am reading Threat Vector by Tom Clancy. The book itself is huge so I don't carry it back and forth to work with me. It is nearly too big for me to hold even (because of the incredible pain in my hands and wrists) The book didn't need to be that big. The font and spacing are a bit larger than a normal book. Tom Clancy must have a tiny..... never mind....
I finished my stitching project for my cousin. I hope to wash it tonight and take a photo of it. I bought a white frame for it. After I iron it I will see if the frame is big enough and I will take it to Michael's to get framed this weekend. I am going to the family reunion in Montana but I think I will ship this to my cousin ahead of me.
Have a great day.
Friday, April 24, 2015
04/24/15
April Stitch From Stash update.
Month: April
Spent: $5.99 (on a piece of aida)
Earned: $15.00
I am calling this project done for April. I only have a reading quote to stitch along the bottom and it will be done. I will finish it this weekend. My cousin is having a family reunion at her home over Memorial Day and this is her hostess gift for doing that. I am soooo ready for a different project. In May, I think I will work on my Save The Stitches blackwork piece that I have been neglecting for over a month.
I haven't been blogging this year at all except for my SFS updates. I stink as a blogger. The only goal I have managed is not eating French fries. Still not a big deal but it is the one thing I have successfully done so it is pretty important to me.
Hope your April was productive.
Month: April
Spent: $5.99 (on a piece of aida)
Earned: $15.00
I am calling this project done for April. I only have a reading quote to stitch along the bottom and it will be done. I will finish it this weekend. My cousin is having a family reunion at her home over Memorial Day and this is her hostess gift for doing that. I am soooo ready for a different project. In May, I think I will work on my Save The Stitches blackwork piece that I have been neglecting for over a month.
I haven't been blogging this year at all except for my SFS updates. I stink as a blogger. The only goal I have managed is not eating French fries. Still not a big deal but it is the one thing I have successfully done so it is pretty important to me.
Hope your April was productive.
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