May 29 2015 Stitch from Stash update

I haven't posted for a couple weeks.  First I fell and hurt myself.  My kneecap was so swollen I couldn't walk on my right leg for 2 days.  Then it was time for my trip to Montana to see my cousin.  So beautiful and peaceful in central/northern Montana.

For my May Stitch from Stash reporting:
Spent - zero
Earned - $8.00 for my llama and for block 5 of Save the Stitches.  I am working on block 6 and then I will switch to something else.

The lighting on my llama isn't very good.

5/14/15

Did pretty good food wise yesterday, until supper time.  I made a trip to Michael's to get my gift for my cousin.  This picture is below.  the way the flash reflected it looks like there are lenses in the glasses. Anyway, I went to UPS to have it shipped to MT.  Totally shocked.  It cost double what it did to frame it.  Holy Crap!  But I wanted to get it there so I paid. 

Then I needed to pick up something for supper.  My husband has been so crabby (he hates his job so much) I decided to get Chinese.  I rarely do that.  I usually stop at Subway and get sandwiches.  But I was hoping to cheer up my crabby guy.    I saved part of my General Tso's tofu for today and I only had a large spoonful of fried rice.  But I ate 2 veggie spring rolls.  I didn't have any soy sauce.  It was so good.  I could eat that GT tofu everyday.  It must be loaded with sugar to make me like it so much.  I need to stay focused and "be good" for the rest of the week.  Man, I love to eat.  Wish I could just go cold turkey.

Catch ya later.

5/12/15

After finding out yesterday, that I lost 5 lbs for a total of 6 lbs, I was feeling pretty good.  The metro had major issues yesterday so to go home we decided to not get on the metro since to go home on our normal blue line we would go through the trouble spots.  We took the red line to Union Station and got on the VRE to Alexandria and then got back on the blue line to go home.  Cost a lot more.  I was having such a good day but at Union Station the long escalator to the train was not working and as I was going  down, I felt my hip muscle pull.  Almost fell.  So much pain.  I have been having a lot of pain in my left hip.  But the chiropractor seems to help.  But last night OMG.  Also, it was so hot and humid yesterday.  I had every intention of getting on my exercise bike.  Like I mentioned I was motivated.  But with the pain and sweat dripping down my body, I just couldn't handle it.  Jumped in the shower, washed my hair, etc.  Tried to make dinner, only got as far as cutting some veggies for salad.  I had to go lay down and find a spot for my leg with no pain.  I couldn't sit but I found a position laying down that helped.  After awhile I was able to get up and sit in a chair without pain.  I have a doctor appointment in a few weeks so I am going to ask for a hip X-ray.    Bad hips run in my family.  If I need a hip replacement I need to do it before my husband retires and we don't have insurance.

Still trying to be motivated.  I have my meals planned out today.  Still wish I didn't obsess about eating so much.

5/11/15 lost 5 lbs

I weighed in today.  I supposedly lost 5 lbs in the last week.  A part of me really doesn't believe it.  Like maybe the scale was malfunctioning.  My reasoning is my rings are tight.  I felt like I was going to gain this week because of the tightness.  Also, I felt like I was starving and bingeing all week. I guess the good news is eating all those cucumbers when I get hungry helps.  I ate all my lunches and breakfasts from the weight watchers frozen meals.  I tried to pick the ones with the lowest counts.  This way I could have more points to eat at supper time. 

On Sunday's we always eat early.  My husband likes to have a big dinner on Sunday's. By doing this by 6:00pm I am really hungry.  This Sunday the meal wasn't really big but I made a larger than normal amount of cooked broccoli and ate it.  I think that probably did help me out.  And for something sweet, I ate thawed out sugar free peaches at work. 

I feel good when my weight drops below a zero weight like 159 lbs, below 160 (that would be amazing to be that low).  I have less than a 1 lb to go to drop below a zero weight.  That is going to be my motivator this week. (I hope)

5/8/15

Rode my exercise bike for 18 1/2 minutes yesterday.  I was going for 20 but my knee started to hurt so I stopped.  I figured if I kept going I would hurt today and not get back on the stupid thing.  I really hate to exercise.  I find no joy in it at all.  I know I should be doing it everyday and trying to go longer and longer.  I really can't stand it.  I imagine one big reason is all the pain I am in.  But I need to keep going so I can get this weight off which is the cause of most of the pain. 

5/7/15

Yesterday was a little better food wise.  I still felt like I was on an eating frenzy.  When I have this desire to eat, I would stop and think...Am I hungry?  A couple times yes, and a couple no.   It did help yesterday to have the bowl of broccoli with my WW entrée.  Also, in the afternoon I ate my peaches.  I got the kind in the freezer section with no sugar added.  I put a little cinnamon on them.  It tasted like peach cobbler.  I am taking the tomato juice out of my morning routine.  While it fills me up I think it has too much salt.  At least I hope this water retention.  I am going to be so sad to gain weight on my second weigh in. 

I have a busy day at work today so hopefully that will keep my mind occupied.

Have a great day.

5/6/15

On Monday, I had my first weigh in with Weight Watchers.  I lost a pound.  Pretty sure it was because I was wearing a different pair of pants that are a lighter material.

Since I decided to do this, I feel like I am starving and can't get enough food.  So it comes down to I am not getting enough food because I don't have enough plain vegetables and fruits in my diet.  I eat all the wrong foods so I am only allowed a 1/2 cup of most things I like to eat.  So I am really hungry.  I feel like I am on a feeding frenzy.  Today, I tried to bring enough stuff to work so I could stop this feeling.  I brought my WW egg sandwich, a can of tomato juice, a cup of raw cucumber, a cup of cooked broccoli and a cup of peaches.  I also have my WW frozen lunch entrée.   Crazy thing is I have a desire to wolf it all down now.  I don't believe I am actually hungry.  I think there is something wrong in my head.

My rings are really tight so I am not losing weight I feel like I am gaining.  So today I hope to get control of this with the extra veggies and fruits. 

My depression is pretty high right now too.  I have been going to bed around 8:00 each night and I am not doing anything except reading.  That is an escape mechanism for me.  Really weepy today.  My husband and I are planning to move back to WI in April.  And while I want to go back, it is really scary because we will have no income till we find jobs.  Also, I have a co-worker that I just want to scream at.  This is what I would scream -  SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP.  She drives me nuts and is making my great job not so great. 

Okay, I am off to try to make this a good day.