Today I had a doctor appointment to discuss the incredible amount of pain I am in. It is constant pain body wide. Mostly in my lower legs and moving is so painful but sitting still can be too. I may have mentioned this but last May I had a really bad fall. But an appointment with an orthopedic guy showed no broken bones just damaged tissue. It took nearly 6 months for some of the bruising to go away and the skin on my right knee is still numb. Then the 2nd week in December my boss's dog came up behind me and swiped my legs out and I went down hard again. So there has been pain, but this pain that is building is so bad I really feel like I should be in a motorized wheel chair. Some days I can barely stand up. This pain isn't doing much for my mental health either. My doctor put me on an anti-inflammatory/pain med today. Hopefully I will start to feel like I can walk. The doctor is testing for Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lymes and Lupas as well as some other things. She also wants me to go to physical therapy too. I feel like all is not hopeless right now. We shall see what comes. The one thing that was disappointing was my weight. I haven't lost anything. I really feel like I am not bingeing and such so I thought maybe it would come down a pound or two. Nope! Dang! I will just have to keep moving foward.
Reading:
I finished Stitch Me Deadly by Amanda Lee when I was at the clinic today. Very fast read. Mostly I just enjoy the fact the main character works in an embroidery shop. I am going to start the 3rd book in that series, Thread Reckoning.
Stitching:
I haven't stitched in the last two days. I work on Monday and Tuesday and usually feel too wiped out. I will try to work on my eagle today. especially if these pain meds kick in.
Hoping to Heal:
Today'scripture: Mark 10:18 - Why do you call me good? Nobody is good except one, God. It is about basking in praise and not giving the glory to God.
OA For Today: It is in our faults and failings, not in our virtues, that we touch one another and find sympathy. Jerome K. Jerome
OA Voices of Recovery: I keep an open mind to having an open mind; the possibilities are endless.
Have a great day!
Wednesday, February 28, 2018
Monday, February 26, 2018
Monday Monday 2/26/18
It is Monday, so back to work. I left a job in DC that I loved but I just hated living there. My job here is really enjoyable too. I do accounts payable & receivable and payroll for a drywall construction company. There are a total of 60 employees usually. Most are carpenters, tapes and painters that I never see. I just communicate with them by text or phone calls if I need too. It is a good job. Good pay for this area of the country. The only downside is the office is in the loft of an industrial garage. No break room. So the only sink is in the bathroom that is used by everyone. Blech! I only work 3 days a week. But I like being semi-retired so that is okay. What is nice is I only work as long as I have work. I am not stuck sitting there till 5:00 if I have nothing to do.
Reading:
Still reading Stitch Me Deadly. Book 2 of a series. I do love a series.
Stitching:
Here is a photo of my eagle project that I started in 2009 or 2010. I WILL finish it this year. I want to give it to my husband and then move on.
I also am attaching a picture of my project basket. My neat freak husband can not stand any kind of clutter or mess so I had to find something I could keep out and he couldn't see my stitching stuff.
Now here is the basket when I had my project out on the TV tray and was working on it.
His name is Shadow. He is a big boy.
Hoping to Heal:
Daily Scripture: Prov 13:10 - Wisdom belongs to those who seek advice. Through regular prayer, Bible study and application of what we learn, we can gradually strengthen our conscience.
OA For Today: Most people ask for happiness on condition. Happiness can only be felt if you don't set any condition. Arthur Rubenstein Setting conditions is putting myself back in the driver's seat. I can have the courage to trust, to let go and know that the ability to do this is a great blessing.
OA Voices of Recovery: I forget that God does not need instructions from me on how to run my life. god knows all my problems, pains, fears...God does not need a task list from me.
OA Food for Thought: Help me to slow down and appreciate your gifts.
Peace and Love
Reading:
Still reading Stitch Me Deadly. Book 2 of a series. I do love a series.
Stitching:
Here is a photo of my eagle project that I started in 2009 or 2010. I WILL finish it this year. I want to give it to my husband and then move on.
I also am attaching a picture of my project basket. My neat freak husband can not stand any kind of clutter or mess so I had to find something I could keep out and he couldn't see my stitching stuff.
Now here is the basket when I had my project out on the TV tray and was working on it.
His name is Shadow. He is a big boy.
Hoping to Heal:
Daily Scripture: Prov 13:10 - Wisdom belongs to those who seek advice. Through regular prayer, Bible study and application of what we learn, we can gradually strengthen our conscience.
OA For Today: Most people ask for happiness on condition. Happiness can only be felt if you don't set any condition. Arthur Rubenstein Setting conditions is putting myself back in the driver's seat. I can have the courage to trust, to let go and know that the ability to do this is a great blessing.
OA Voices of Recovery: I forget that God does not need instructions from me on how to run my life. god knows all my problems, pains, fears...God does not need a task list from me.
OA Food for Thought: Help me to slow down and appreciate your gifts.
Peace and Love
Sunday, February 25, 2018
2/25/18 A Winter Wonderland outside
This is our second winter back in Wisconsin. Last winter was cold but not much snow. This winter we have had the extreme cold but also lots of snow. We are not snowmobile riders but the ones around here are very happy. It is beautiful. But my poor husband is out there shoveling all the time. Last night was another 7 inches. This has caused Sunday worship was canceled.
Our driveway doesn't really get any sun, so he has to keep it shoveled or it becomes an ice rink. Something we learned that first winter back.
Reading:
I just finished Bring Her Home by David Bell. It was good. I didn't know where it was going at times so it kept me interested. A month or so back I read The Quick and the Thread by Amanda Lee. They are called An Embroidery Mystery. It was a fast read. So now I am going to start Stitch Me Deadly. Book 2 of this series. I do love a series.
Stitching:
I have finally got around to watching some floss tube videos. Some are fun and some...
well anyway😉. We new it would be a hunker down weekend so my husband went to the library and got a bunch of movie CD's. Yesterday we binge watched war movies (yuck). But I stitched away on my eagle. So much confetti. That kept me focused on my pattern so I wasn't paying to much attention to TV. I will post a picture of my progress soon.
Hoping to Heal:
I have been doing fairly good with food issues. It is best when I eat 3 meals a day. Didn't happen yesterday. So by the evening meal time I was extremely hungry and overate. Felt it too. I really didn't feel good. Let that be a lesson to me!!
Daily Scripture: Deut 32:5 - They are the ones that have acted corruptly. They are not his children, the defect is their own. - We are not perfect but we can control our behavior.
OA For Today: When one is a stranger to oneself then on is estranged from others too. Ann Morrow Lindberg. For today - To keep growing in self awareness, awareness of others and of God as my highest priority. For this I am willing to abstain.
OA Food for Thought: May I not be discouraged by mistakes.
I am off to finish laundry and make breakfast. Happy reading and stitching to you.
Our driveway doesn't really get any sun, so he has to keep it shoveled or it becomes an ice rink. Something we learned that first winter back.
Reading:
I just finished Bring Her Home by David Bell. It was good. I didn't know where it was going at times so it kept me interested. A month or so back I read The Quick and the Thread by Amanda Lee. They are called An Embroidery Mystery. It was a fast read. So now I am going to start Stitch Me Deadly. Book 2 of this series. I do love a series.
Stitching:
I have finally got around to watching some floss tube videos. Some are fun and some...
well anyway😉. We new it would be a hunker down weekend so my husband went to the library and got a bunch of movie CD's. Yesterday we binge watched war movies (yuck). But I stitched away on my eagle. So much confetti. That kept me focused on my pattern so I wasn't paying to much attention to TV. I will post a picture of my progress soon.
Hoping to Heal:
I have been doing fairly good with food issues. It is best when I eat 3 meals a day. Didn't happen yesterday. So by the evening meal time I was extremely hungry and overate. Felt it too. I really didn't feel good. Let that be a lesson to me!!
Daily Scripture: Deut 32:5 - They are the ones that have acted corruptly. They are not his children, the defect is their own. - We are not perfect but we can control our behavior.
OA For Today: When one is a stranger to oneself then on is estranged from others too. Ann Morrow Lindberg. For today - To keep growing in self awareness, awareness of others and of God as my highest priority. For this I am willing to abstain.
OA Food for Thought: May I not be discouraged by mistakes.
I am off to finish laundry and make breakfast. Happy reading and stitching to you.
Saturday, February 24, 2018
2/24/2018
I seriously must be the worst blogger out there. I am so inconsistent. My blog use to be called Fighting the Foodaholic Inside me. I eat when stressed, happy, sad, etc. But I changed it to be more of what I want to focus on...my hobbies and healing. I am semi-retired so I am trying to turn to more things that make me happy.
I was keeping track of what books I read on this blog but I deleted those pages. I have an excel spreadsheet that works so much better.
Reading:
I am reading a book right now called Bring Her Home. Don't have it with me right now so I can't tell you the author. Lots of twists and turns.
Stitching:
I hadn't finished a project since 2016 before we moved from DC to Northwest Wisconsin. But I did start and finish a small one in February 2018. It is on my 2018 Finishes page. It is a birth sampler for my Great Nephew. Now I am stitching on my eagle in flight project that I started for my husband in 2009. This year we will celebrate our 10th anniversary. I would really like to give it to him as a gift. So I am pushing to complete it. I have quite a way to go yet. It is a brown confetti nightmare.
Hoping to Heal:
Today's scripture is Ps 19:13 - Hold your servant back from the presumptuous acts. Good advice.
OA For Today - We are apt to be very pert about censuring others, where we will not endure advice ourselves. - Recognition of my faults does not always save me from them. People may seem to want my advice, but that is no reason for me to give it.
OA Voices of Recovery: I started the program by doing everything I was suppose to do... Action is the magic word. Just do it!
We cleaned the house this morning. Goofed around a bit and now I think I will try to figure out how to access my blog on my tablet. (I was gifted a tablet - a remarkable gift.) I also want to finish my book and cross stitch some more.
Happy Saturday.
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
Trying again from Wisconsin
Hey Everyone,
I put my blog aside in August 2016 when we started the huge task of moving from Alexandria, VA back to our home territory in Wisconsin.
The last 18 months have been extremely hard. In a nutshell - My husband's PTSD was off the charts. I read a lot of books. T-Mobile now charges for calls to OA so I haven't been doing that. I stopped cross-stitching. My weight has stayed level. Too high but level. I stopped living for a bit.
I am trying to get back on my feet. I changed the name of my blog to Reading, Stitching and Hoping to Heal. Now you can find me at ThoughtsbyDianne.blogspot.
That's all right now. Just dipping my toe in as I get started on the path to happiness again.
I put my blog aside in August 2016 when we started the huge task of moving from Alexandria, VA back to our home territory in Wisconsin.
The last 18 months have been extremely hard. In a nutshell - My husband's PTSD was off the charts. I read a lot of books. T-Mobile now charges for calls to OA so I haven't been doing that. I stopped cross-stitching. My weight has stayed level. Too high but level. I stopped living for a bit.
I am trying to get back on my feet. I changed the name of my blog to Reading, Stitching and Hoping to Heal. Now you can find me at ThoughtsbyDianne.blogspot.
That's all right now. Just dipping my toe in as I get started on the path to happiness again.
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